sum

Somethings
no matter how hard its tried
sometimes
no matter how many hours are placed between
somebody
no matter how many somebodies are met
some ships
no matter how many capsized
some nuggets
no matter how deep a hole is dug and covered
some days
no matter the sun that shines or smiling faces
some dreams
no matter how quickly we try and escape them
some songs
no matter the one who sings them
some words
no matter the mouth that speaks them
some faces
no matter the love that erases
some times in life, you've just got to carry your cross,
some days of the year, you've just gotta suck it up and take it,
some moments, some decisions,
some lies and some truths, you've got to learn how to swallow
either way, some hopes
some say are better left forsaken.

Thankful

Today I am.
Thankful for the joy of forever friends.
The ability to share, ourselves.
Thankful for music and the discovery there of.
Thankful for memory and the knowledge that sometimes you've just got to forget.
Thankful for accessibility. and thankful for turning it all, off. Thankful for being still, sometimes.
Thankful for turning away and thankful for turning in.
Thankful when things are clean and for a hot, home cooked meal.
Thankful for family.
Thankful for the innocence of a child, its true.
Thankful for the ability to dance, the freedom to sing, thankful for willpower.

Thankful for more than this, but this is what I've got for now.

"Name" - Goo Goo Dolls
Absolve
Absolutely.
And love really is what its all about, really is the simplest answer.
The easiest cure, quickest of all pills to swallow.
Living life sort of backwards, learning--now, how to live without regret
Regretting only that negativity itself is captivating, recapturing
my
self.
And even when sometimes, you can see yourself laughing from the outside
And even when sometimes, those phone calls are never returned, words never answered
You are learning to find a smile, reclaiming that which was your claim.
To know and be forever, known.
Giddily lept into arms, clasped
wrapped, weeping wonder
rapture
raptured--left forever, what once
never ever could have been.
Running, dancing, dreaming, living, filled with--the stuff of it.
To live it and forget that you ever once just could
not breath.
Just breath. Find belief. Take hold of it and
reclaim.


After all of this I'm always still just one step away from it.
Reclaiming me.